My baby is turning TWO!!!

I can't believe my baby girl turns TWO on Monday!!! We are celebrating with a family party tomorrow...Mickey Mouse style!  I look at this first picture from when she was two days old and my heart melts! Look how little both my babies are!!! I can not believe what a difference a couple of short years makes!

The rest of the pictures are from the first half of this year...and maybe one from Christmas time.

(totally bummed I couldn't rotate this...this is where she hangs out when we go outside to play!)

A few little tidbits on this nugget:

• Favorite color: Purple, hence the color of the font.
• Really only started talking around Christmas time but has not stopped yet. Is putting her noun and verb together to make short sentences...her language just took off once she figured it out!
• Thinks she's supposed to pee standing up like her brother.
• Great sleeper...finally! For the last year she sleeps about twelve hours a night (730 or 8pm until between 7 and 8 am).
• Resists nap time. Just plays and bounces and POOPS! She saves this for nap time...I'm sure of it!
• Also resists wearing dresses. She prefers leggings or Nathan's clothes.
• Kendall is such a ray of sunshine around here. She loves to be a goofball and make us laugh. She knows she's funny and really plays it up!
• LOVES to play with her babies. Sleeps with two of them every night.
• Gives Nathan a run for his money...sometimes I hear him screaming because she's got him pinned!

I am so blessed for both of my babies!!! They are beautiful, smart, funny, sweet, caring, and little monsters all rolled into perfect little bodies of goodness!  THANK YOU LORD!!!!

A time to reflect...

The other day I was asked by my gym, Fitness Experience, to be "Member of the Month" of the month of May. They highlight my fitness/weight loss journey on the wall with before and after pictures and a little bio. It was such a flattering feeling to be recognized for all my hard work and progress. It was also a great time to reflect on my journey. I have to admit that it also makes me a little emotional. I've been a good mom, a good wife, friend, daughter, sister and I HAVE been happy. I have a great life. But I've realized that I can't be TRULY happy until I love myself first. I have not been doing that the last several years and it makes me sad. I had a hard time finding pictures of me from the last five years because they are few and far between...I preferred to be behind the camera. Anyway, I want to share my story because I am proud of how far I've come, the changes I've made and hopefully I can inspire someone else.

My BIO:

My name is Traci Beaver and my journey to better health really began about six years ago. My husband, Cass, and I were married in 2006 and shortly after decided to start our family. Being a mom is all I've ever wanted to be in life and I've been blessed with two beautiful babies, Nathan age 4.5 and Kendall, age 2.  Growing up, I was always active and involved in sports. My weight was never an issue and I had the self confidence that matched. During my first pregnancy I gained 65 lbs. The weight did not fall off as quickly as it packed itself on. After Nathan was born and I was the heaviest I've ever been, my self esteem and self confidence plummeted. I immersed my self in motherhood to avoid having to deal with my outward appearance. I wore oversized sweatshirts and hand me down jeans, with no desire to go shopping or look in a mirror. I have always enjoyed exercise and have always been a member of a gym but no matter how hard I worked, I did not see the results I expected. In 2009, I got pregnant with Kendall. Although I did not gain as much weight during the pregnancy, I still weighed in at 200 lbs the night she was born. A couple of months before Kendall was born, I joined Fitness Experience because it was a close location to our new home and I loved that they offered good classes that I could eventually be part of. It took me several months after Kendall was born to really put my gym shoes on and get back to FE. 

At the New Year 2011, FE put on a team weight loss competition. I was asked to join a team of a great group of women. Although our team did not win, I dropped some weight and was feeling strong. I was running on my own and doing Iron Fit with Cody and Melissa. Once the competition was over I did not make any more progress and my dedication slipped. I was still feeling sorry for myself. My brother and sister are amazing people who always look phenomenal. My sister competed in the Crossfit Games last year and living up to her achievements is near impossible! I just knew that I would always be the "chubby sister" and was really trying to convince myself that I would have to get used to it.

In January of this year I signed up for Rock Your Jeans here at the gym. I needed one last push towards my goals, not just losing weight and getting fit, but I needed to change my mentality. I promised myself that this year would be the year of Mind, Body and Soul. I took the meal plan from Deanna and put my plan into action. I started running three or four times a week, Zumba three times a week, and doing Gravity in the mornings with Brenda. Within the first four weeks I started to see some changes in my body. Something clicked and I knew that there was no going back...EVER! I joined Andrew's Fit Camp and started adding tabata sprints at the end of my runs, and was sticking with my Zone diet. EMPOWERED. That's how I started to feel. Not only that but I rocked my jeans!!!!! Since January, I am down 8 lbs and several jean sizes!!! I ran in a 5K over the weekend and got my new PR...25:42 (and it ended UP HILL!!)

The biggest changes happened on the inside. The negative self talk and name calling turned in to more positive encouragement. Me, myself and I are finally starting to work as a team and it  feels great. I'm happier, more confident, and I shop! I could not have done it without the support system that I am surrounded by. My husbands supports me as I take more time away from my family to work on myself. The constant encouragement and motivation from the trainers and staff at the gym are huge. They all believe in me and there is no way I'm letting them down. Lastly, I feel like I have a family of friends here at the gym. Knowing I will see their faces help get me to class when I'm feeling a little sluggish. 

I know I'm not the fastest or the strongest but I'm the happiest I've been in years. I am still working towards my goals and I know that getting there is a reality. My motto:

"Wake up with determination, go to bed with satisfaction!" (unknown author)

 

 My 'BEFORE' pic...September 2008.

My silly after photo...Taken on Easter, April 8, 2012.

Another New Year!!

With a New Year comes a new resolution...right?! In keeping with tradition I have committed myself to another weight loss competition. I DID NOT meet my weight loss goals last year. I tried and made great strides, but I have some work left to do. I am actually really excited about this years competition. My gym is doing a "Rock Your Jean" contest. Lose 2 jean sizes in 10 weeks! If you succeed, your name goes into a drawing for tons of really awesome prizes...like 100.00 gift card to a boutique, Subway is kicking in a great prize, spa prizes, etc. I don't know about the rewards a ton...just word of mouth. SOOOOO of course I had to go buy a new pair of awesome Silver Jeans!!! Expensive...yes. But it will give me a little more motivation to do this!
Tonight I have to go grocery shopping...on the list...fruit. Lots of fruit! Vegetables, chicken, pistachios, beans, turkey burger, yogurt. I don't really know what else to get.
Here is what concerns me. I did this last year...it was a team challenge. I felt like I did great but did not see the results I was expecting. I did not have a perfect diet but I thought I did a hell of a job changing my eating habits and was working out almost every day. So why do I think it will be different this year????

-I am no longer breast feeding. I think my body retains all my fat when I'm nursing. Nor am I only 7 months post pardum. I feel like my body is even more ready. (Those might be just some excuses for my mental state of mind...and that's fine:))
-I plan on having an even better diet.
-I really want to rock my new jeans. They are SOOOOO cute!
-This year is going to be full of amazing changes. I'm going to grad school, Kendall turns 2, Cass and I turn 31, Nathan will be 5 and going to start his 2nd year of preschool in the Fall...and I will start student teaching. Therefore, I have deemed this the year of Mind and Body!!! (I  feel like I'm always working on soul so I didn't want to make it a resolution...make sense?!)

I am so ready for this and once again I want to blog about this 10 week challenge. Along with the 10 week challenge, it will also be my first 10 week term back in school...GRAD SCHOOL!!! So I will have lots to talk about I'm sure!
Oh and I'm no longer private. Just FYI!